During the month of February, I dealt with a series of migraines that finally led me to the doctors. Thankfully, I have been feeling better each day for the past week, and it’s been over two weeks since my last migraine. In the midst of my migraines, I wrote the following thoughts. If you’ve had migraines, you can probably relate. If you haven’t had migraines, this will give you a small glimpse into the “wonderful” world of impaired vision, numb hands, and piercing head pain.
My vision blurs as I begin to lose focus; I can barely see what lies ahead.
The words on the page become wavy as I wish I were home in my bed.
It’s as thought someone squeezed my eyes; I try to blink to see if it clears.
But nothing seems to help. The pages smear.
Next, I notice my hand starts to tingle; I crack my knuckles to feel them pop.
Then suddenly, I feel nothing; My hand goes numb; my shoulders drop.
I’m frustrated. Why must this persist?
It drives me crazy. I can’t feel my fist.
As my vision fades back into view, and the feeling returns to my fingers
I know what’s next – a throbbing head pain that lingers.
Sometimes it lasts for an hour or two (if I’m lucky),
But often the pain and the lack of energy lasts for a day or two.
It feels like someone drove a nail through the side of my head – I want to cry
And then they stuck cotton rags behind my eyes.
Bright lights and sunny skies drive me into the dark;
I put on my sunglasses and I pray for and end to the pain and the disorientation.
When will it stop? When will I think and see clearly – without distortion?
Can you feel my pain? What have you been through that left you feeling frustrated or down? What helped to lift you up?